so back in october i made my first attempt and obviously failed but about a month ago i made plans for my second and now that’s in about 2 weeks. i feel really sick to say this but i’m excited. i’m sick and tired of this bullshit feeling and the only thing that gets me through the day is thinking “in a little bit it will all be over, you’ll be free” i know i should be thinking of everyone i’m going to leave but i’m so tired of living and being here that i could care less.
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i know what u mean by saying i feel excited.
i have a similar situation.
how did you fail the 1st time?
i waited too long between taking pills (i took a ton and then went for a walk and almost stepped out into traffic) and then got home and took a bunch more pills but then woke up the next morning throwing up :/
I understand your feelings completely however do you really want it to end it this way?
i’d have control over it all. this way i can plan out everything and how i want it to go and honestly i’m so tired of existing
i totally know what you mean. the knowledge that i have a good way out actually keeps me going a little longer. it’s weird.
yeah its totally freaking me out how calm i am about it