I Can Feel Myself Shrink

I can really feel myself shrink when I’m at school, the amount of negative feelings toward myself kind of made me uneasy and it’s not even that even that it’s the amount of time I’ve spent feeling THIS bad about myself from from 6th-10th grade(now) and the amount of anger and emotion that I have I do feel bad about carrying so much of it but it’s like I can’t pinpoint my exact problems with my depression sometimes it feels like it’s the same problems repeating themselves and it’s hard to feel good about myself and say that it’ll be alright because after so much going wrong ,gosh I don’t even have the energy to do what I love anymore because I don’t feel good about my abilities either which sucks.. because I feel awful when I see people doing well which doesn’t make me feel too good