I am young, (13 almost 14) and I know I should be weird with my emotions. I have suicidal thoughts all of the time. I cry for no reason, suffer from insomnia, and have constant headaches with no medical reasoning. I’ve taken tests online, searched up the symptoms of depression, and all that stuff, and I am sure that I have it. I was okay until I broke my ankle (like a month ago, still have the cast today) where I got a lot worse. Now I just want to die, no matter what. I’ve been so close to trying to drown myself, and while unloading the dishwasher I tried to cut my wrist with a steak knife (not even breaking the skin) I don’t know if I want to die, but I constantly feel like it would be so much easier if this was all over. I thought about taking all of my melatonin pills, and everything makes me want to cry. I just feel broken, and it doesn’t help that my parents neglect me. I just want it all to end, and right now, suicide is sounding like a great idea.
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You’re far too young to be doing this stuff. And there has to be a reason why you feel sad. That means the sadness will pass. Please don’t cut yourself — I cut myself once on the wrist when I was 20 because I was crazy sad, and now I regret it. People notice it all the time, I get embarrassed talking about it.
Your pain will pass, go out with some friends, do some studying and get good grades, it will make you feel better. There’s so much life ahead of you, when you’re my age, you’ll look back and think how crazy you were 🙂
Hmm you think breaking your ankle has triggered your depression. When I was 11 I got my foot caught in a cattle grid causing me to fall over face first breaking my nose. I fell unconscious and was stuck for ages until a farmer rescued me. It was that day I knew, my life would never be the same again and 15 years later I endedup on a suicide site. I mean when you analyse it, that’s a pretty big coincidence dont you think.
Perhaps you’ll feel better once your ankle is repaired. Maybe your are depressed and it has nothing to do with your ankle. Don’t let anything stress you out. Talk about your problems. At your age it makes the world of difference to share your burden with adults, like your parents maybe.