I wish to be strong enough.

I wanna be strong enough.
to fight.
I wanna be tough enough.
to survive.
but even fighters gotta give.
and even weaklings gotta live.
i want to breathe, but it’s too hard.
I want to feel, but i got no heart.
I sold it,
a long long time ago,
sold it to the devil,
along with my soul.
And God won’t help.
He hasn’t for a while.
but i still pray,
But I guess it’s not His style.
He doesn’t care for me,
he does’nt care at all,
I guess I’ve asked too much of Him,
Cause he won’t answer when I call.
So I’ll fend for myself,
and try to survive in hell,
and put up with the devil’s gaze.
and i’ll try not to scream,
while burning in a firey blaze.
and put up with all the pain.
I just wish I were strong enough,
to stand up for myself,
I wish I were tough enough,
to regain my health.
But the blood has been spilled,
and I have lost
So bye bye mortality,
You’ve caused me to give up…