Anew on the morning sunrays I began another day
with an entire white oblong pill (vice 1/2 a tablet) on my way to the bottom of the well/or to evade the bottom of the well…
Why can I not climb or simply descend to find the floor of the well?
At the very least the waterfalls have lessend and speaking any hellos with strangers no longer turns on the torrents of tears
For this I am grateful
What I knew to be a possibility has not surfaced
in fact this new reality is far from how I thought it would be
with the White Pills
I am not “masked” I am not under pleksyglass I am not anything
least of all concerned if I hit or locate or meet the bottom of the well
I am concerned that I “am not concerned” enough to help my situation up or down…
Laughingly………R u kidding me? I was told that the white pills needed to be bumped up to get to feel like my old self…R u kidding me? I haven’t felt like myself in over a decade!!!! so…I was told the white pills needed to be bumped up so that I was more myself and to get rid of the feeling of “I just don’t give a shit” feeling that has settled over me since started the white pills