Lock . . .

Lock the key to my heart. Never again will I let my pain start. Its now just healing, no sorrow to show, that love can hurt. But I will grow into the women that I know. Sometimes love will let you go…Hold your breath, forget,forgive. And it will show he’ll miss you dearly when you go. Be the person your happy to be. Until death takes part, when you’ll be let free. Freedom does last, it does show. Everyone has their opinions, so just let it go. Tomorrow is another chance to show to just have fun being me, until ill let go. Sometimes I don’t know how far I can really go. How much more I can take. Its like that breaking point is calling my name. Im running so fast and far. Yet ive never been closer. So much confusion, complete blur…Something these doctors cant seem to erase. Something in me that just cant be saved. So long farewell, ive done my best. Just itching for the ones who never failed me, the ones who’s never lied or deceived me. Just give me a sip, maybe more. Cant hurt more than the broken life ive created. Its something so hard to understand, yet if you knew the feeling, the high and euphoria….the place I call my savior. You would never ever leave it behind! 2 sips is fine, just pop 2 pills of each and I feel divine. With those puffs in my lungs I exhale happiness. Its something so undeniable to me, with the moon and the stars gleaming bright. The world sound asleep, I cant but feel more alive. All the pain and pieces just seem to mend themselves. Even if its a moment, its those seconds of breath I treasure most.