this is my first time ever talking aboutÂ my suicidal feelings. i guess I should let you know about me. I’m 18 and I’ve been trying to kill myself since I was ten not sure what made me want to start but i’ve been trying ever since. Sometimes I’ll be “fine” for weeks and then i drop back to wanting to die or cut which can last for a few days or sometimes months. In total I’ve tried 12 times one was about 3 hours ago and shortly after started puking, my mom walked in the bathroom and asked if I was ok and i told her i was sick. She and my dad are the reason I’m reaching out and talking about this, neither of them know that I even think about suicide if they found out i actually tried it would kill them so i want to try giving life a chance for a bit longer. Other than this sight I told my best friend that I had just tried toÂ kill myself Â and he kinda freaked at first then was really supportive and understanding he even asked if he could take me to the doctor to make sure I’d be ok but i feel fine so we just sat and talked. I’m beng cautiosly optimistic that me opening up may help.