I suffer from PTSD, OCD, and bipolar II.Â I’m also a FtM transgender person.Â My father died in 2009; I was only 20 and was his next of kin and had to to everything relate to the burial.
It took a toll on me.Â I didn’t even tell my doctor until 2010, when he put me on antidepressants.
The medication works, for the most part.Â But sometimes, my depression creeps back up again.Â It did that two years ago.Â I had pills stashed, I was ready to do it…
But then an anonymous person commented on a blog post of mine.Â It was just the first public post they could find, and they left this there:
I sobbed while reading every word of it, it was so true for me and my experiences.Â It saved my life.
Today, I saw a blog post, someone I’ve never seen before had left a suicide note.Â I’m a total stranger, but I left that same link for them, and my contact info so they could talk to me, if I’d left my comment in time.Â I’m still hoping they’re alive and will see it…Â I don’t know this person at all, but my heart aches for them.
I hope I was able to pay it forward in time…