Seems like self-mutilation have been a part of me for a long time…

I was thinking back about when I started to self-harm. It’s not really clear to me, but I think it’s a long time ago. I’m now 17 and I can remember that at an age of 10 I was already self-mutilating. Things like bang my head against the wall when I was not feeling well and hurting myself by means of abusing to myself, provoking quarrels and so on. Maybe I started earlier, but at an age of ten I can remember it very well. Therefor I can remember I was nail biting, but not other things that can be specify as self-mutilating behavior. The reason why I did this all isn’t clear to me. But now I realize that the self-mutilating behavior was there already for a long time, but it became more obvious when I started to cut. I cut now for more than one year, but not only cutting, also bang my head to a wall, biting myself, beating myself and so on. Yes, self-mutilation is a part of me, but I will NEVER BE it…