I haven’t cut in a few weeks. The urge to start cutting again is eating at me. I can’t stop thinking about those razors and knives. I don’t know what to do. I’ve tried so many different things, but none of the alternative methods are working. I’m tired of trying, I just want to give in to the urge.
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I also struggle with self injury. I gave into my urges last week and I really regret it. In the past I’ve found writing a helpful thing. Don’t worry about punctuation or grammar, just let your feelings flow out. Or try listening to music or something else you enjoy doing. If you’re still struggling, you could try snapping a rubber band on your wrist, sounds lame but it’s better than cutting. I’m sorry you’re struggling, I’m here to talk.
I also have those urges but running helps me. Try doing something that requires a lot of attention. Maybe try doing math. I know it’s torture but it’ll get your mind off of it.
I too struggle with cutting. I get the urge, then it just gets worse and worse until I cut. I try to cope in other ways but it doesn’t work as well. When I cut I feel the pain and then I’m numb, all the bad memories and feelings go away, it’s almost instantaneous relief. I think that the alternative methods work, but they take practice. This has been my philosophy, try other methods, practice them, try to make them a habit. I cut less than I used to so the other methods must be helping. I use the elastic band that darksky21 recommended which works and I exercise as much as I can. If you end up cutting it’s not the end of the world, but keep on trying other methods of coping, hopefully in the end, the healthy methods of coping will win.
I’ve been a cutter for 14 years now, on & off but very active in the last few months, especially last few weeks, I’m cuttin at the least every other day, multiple times a day. I can’t say that I’m struggling with self mutilation because I’m actively choosing to cut and not trying to utilize other methods of coping. If you don’t want to cut, there are other ways of coping that really do work. Darksky and Aclyburne are absolutely right about writing all your feelings out, with that one you just have to be completly honest with yourself, no sugar coating anything. I am an artist so personally I prefer to paint and/or draw my despair out of me. Also, my favorite is running. Exercise is another amazing tool that even has great health benefits, sadly so many people are too lazy to even try. If neither one of these methods isn’t helping and you really just want to escape the feelings as opposed to dealing with them, I suggest submersing yourself in anything you enjoy doing, wether it be watching tv, (or like me) playing video games and/or sex work great for me. I guess just doing anything that would get your mind off the icky feelings. The rubber band snap never worked for me, in fact it just irritated me, rendering further frustration, but I do hear that some people find it helpful. To each his own I guess. Good luck to you nuwanda. I hope we helped in any way. I pray you find peace among your struggles.
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