Uhmm. This is my first post or whatever and I think writing will help. I love writing and expressing my feelings. Alright, I’ve been depressed for about a year or so. I started noticing when all I did was cry every other day. Cry because my parents argue, cry because my older brother life is fucked up ever since his divorce. Cry because my moms sick and getting surgery. Cry because sometimes my boyfriend isn’t there for me. Cry because I remember my friend who died of cancer this summer. Cry for all this little things. It’s gotten worse to the point where I want to end it all, but I can’t I have to be strong. Some days I feel more sad than others. Today I got in a fight with my bf and little things like that trigger the bad thoughts. I’m trying to keep strong for my family, but I can only be strong for so long.