YOU ARE A MISTAKE!!!
YOU ARE A MISTAKE!!
YOU ARE A FAT, STUPID, UGLY GIRL!!
WHY ARE YOU STILL ALIVE IN GODS NAME??
JUST DIE!!
THE WORLD WOULD BE BETTER WITHOUT YOU, FUCKING *****!!
The voice in my head. That evil devil. That little devil that’s inside me, that’s part of me. It won’t go away, it’s so much stronger than me. She tells me what to do and what not to do, she let me think evil things. It may ound like she is a little monster and yes, she is, but she is also the thing that makes me feel safer, better and less alone. But yes, she is a little devil, or maybe I am it. I don’t know, it’s a mystery. I only know there’s a voice in my head, and it commands me.
There’s a voice inside my head,
A voice that destroys me.
That voice makes me feel forceless.
I’m not myself,
The voice is me and it commands me.
To do things I don’t want.
But that voice also makes me feel better.
It helps me,
But it destroys me too.
Poem written by myself.
13 comments
Nice work
That inner dialog we carry on with ourselves that creates and destroys… I know it well.
Mine tells me that I’m dead.
@Left22, Thanks a lot<3. Would you explain to me what it's looking like at your inner you?? I would love to read some (short) stories of people with the same thing…
@Vedura, does yours also help you in some way?? Like it supports you or make you feel comfortable or as a good friend or so?? Thanks for your comment.
The only thing I can say is that YOUR in control not the voice. Its your body, your life, and you can do what ever you want with it.
@engeltje
Any good story gives a glimpse of the inner dialogue of the writer especially as they explore the motivations of others.
Nick Hornby’s book – A Long Way Down gives a pretty good examination of the inner thoughts of four people attempting to understand themselves and their impulse to kill themselves.
@Left22,
I really like the suggestion of a book, but I really HATE reading. I think I don’t have enough concentration for it. And if I would read, it wouldn’t be an English book, because that’s so difficult to read for me because I’m Dutch 🙂 But I really like the idea
Ah so your username means Angel~ that’s so cool.
No, it does not comfort me. I don’t like it telling that I’m dead. I want to be alive.
@engeltje
My parents emigrated from the Netherlands in the 1950’s so I have a little Dutch blood running through my veins . sadly I don’t speak the language.
I’ll keep my eyes open for some short stories for you.
I stumbled on the following site recently that has some interesting and short articles/stories http://www.rebellesociety.com/
@Umbra_Uroboros, yeaaah it does. It’s dutch for little Angel. 🙂 It has a special meaning to me…
@Vedura, hm it could be that it helped you right?? But I hope that one day you’ll feel alive from the inside and outside. Keep fighting hun<3!!!
@Left22,
1950’s…. Well I guess I don’t know them… xD because I was born in 1996 :P. Nice to know it… But where do you live now?? And what is your meaning of giving me the link of that website?? I really like it to know you are a bit Dutch :).
No, it hurts me and drags me down. I don’t like it.
@Vedura,
I’m really sorry for you. I wish it was better, but I can’t do magic for you 🙁 I’m just hoping for you that it gets better <3.