where is the light…

i wish i could see the light…people say were not broken, just bent…but nights like these i feel like im shattered into a million pieces..how does a person overcome abuse…when all people choose to do is turn a blind eye?…what is left fighting for, when there is nobody willing to fight for you??…i keep taking another shot, to help me dissociate more from the feelings inside, but when i sober up, im just this messed up girl all over again..sick cycle…pretending is so xausting, im not sure how much longer i can take this…