i found this website by searching for ways to overdose on pills so i decided to make an account to see if it would help but, now from reading other posts from people that are around 30 and over that i cant relate to in debt and what not, it just makes me feel even more alone. I’m only 13 and i really shouldn’t be deserving any of the crap i get. I know that people have it worse than me but right now, i should be worrying about boys and whatever a 13 year old girl worries about, i shouldn’t be worry about hiding my scars.  and i should be reaching comfort from my mother. i know most of you understand what it feels like to have crappy parents but even though i get sooooo much shit from my mom that makes me want to kill myself, but  i still love her for some unexplained reason. that’s one thing about myself that i hate. i’m too nice to people and i forgive them. and right now i just need someone to relate to.
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I used to live in Ontario lol
I think you are too young, I also think people of any age are unprepared for some depths of pain they have to go through. My problems have always been only on the inside, but I know what it’s like to feel years older than you are, or like you’ve missed years of life. Please don’t feel alone, there are many people your age and older with problems very close to yours. I don’t speak with many of them anymore but I found a lot of lovely people of different ages and places with different problems to talk to here, and it helped a lot. 🙂 There are a lot more people than you see posting here. And more people and help on other websites. Keep reaching out, you’ll find people who will help make it easier for you to get through everything, and you probably will for them just by being there.
Parents who haven’t matured. Kids exposed to too much info. Find a way to cope Lime17
awesome 😛 what part? 🙂 dont worry im not gonna stalk you or anything xD
i’ve been coping for a while, i just need to be happy again :/
oh i lived in toronto
And whats happy?
i used to live there, i live in mississauga now. and happy is not being suicidal or thinking negatively
Is it possible to control thoughts? Sounds like being brainwashed.
mmm yea i moved outta canada a while ago. Livin in MA now in the rednecky USA where people bomb marathons and stuff
Thanks for the advice 🙂 and it is nice to find people to relate to 🙂
yeah i know its possible but, i guess that i dont try hard enough
lol oh fun 🙂
Yup, I knew a person with all of the above + drug addiction. It started when she was 11.
You shouldn’t trivialize your emotions by comparing yourself to other people.
With that said, things can absolutely get better for you. But its going to take a hell of a lot work and now is the time to start.
Oh wow, im deeply sorry for her 🙁 and youre probably right. i really need to start and get my act together, i’ve been relying to much on others to help me but i can only get better with the help of myself. i do compare myself a lot to others, i just like learning about other peoples problems and connecting to others. i think this website is helping me cope a lot easier than before.
It’s okay to rely on people, as long as you don’t expect them to “save” you. It can be pretty lonely dealing with these problems on ones own; nothing wrong with wanting to connect.
And I too find it beneficial to learn what problems other people have and how they deal with it.
I’m glad this site is helping you cope and I wish you best 🙂
Yes it really sucks that you feel this way so young. Trust me I did too (im not too much older 17) Its awful that the people around you make you feel so awful. But what keeps me going is that I remember that I can go to college when I’m 18. Get out and make a new life for yourself. Hang in there, you can get through this
Hey there musicflower! Sorry i answered late. and it is nice imagining whats going to happen later in life. i usually think of being part of a family and i always imagine being the best mom ever because i wouldnt want to be like my mom. sure its great to imagine these things but its going to feel like forever until it actually happens, if it actually dose happen. Its going to be hard to change how i feel but thanks for the support and good luck in college 🙂
Hey ataraxia. If you ever watched the movie according to greta (if not, you should), when she tried to kill herself by drowning she did it in front of her boyfriend and when she got saved he was mad because he talked about to her about how his friend killed himself without telling anyone or with anyone and that greta was doing it for attention because she knew that she was going to get saved. my point is that, im not excepting someone to help me or save, i just really need someone to relate to :/ Im glad this website is helping me cope too 😛 and thanks, i wish you the best too 🙂
Ah, you’re right. I probably project the whole “saving” thing since I’ve been accused of it myself.
I’ll check that movie out, sounds interesting.
It can be hard to find people to relate to! I can’t say I know anyone in person.
Have you tried looking into support groups/communities (online and off) that deal with eating disorders, etc?
It might help, just a thought.