failed attempt

i tried killing myself on march 5th, but it didnt work. at first i was super upset that it didnt work but over time i got over it. i guess you can say a lot has happened since i last posted. I was cutting everyday and it was tearing my relationship with my boyfriend to shreds. i switched to a razor blade and i started cutting deeper. i wasnt stopping until i saw blood and a lot of it. i have divets in my skin now where i cut they arent even scars they are like valleys in my skin. im in a treatment facility for my cutting and my eating disorder which is getting out of hand. i only eat 5-600 calories a day and i exercise. i want to be down to 115 so badly and im almost there. im 120 right now and i was 140. almost there.