I should have just listened to my dad when he told me to just go take up business . Im not cut out for this shit… If anyone sees this and is thinking up on going to art school… if you dont have talent right now (im talkin about “still scribbling anime in the back of notebooks” kind of no talent) DONT FUCKING GO FOR IT. sure you learn things, maybe a lot of things but it wont amount to anything and if your real lucky you wont even get to graduate on time giving yourself an extra year or two of learning nothing. but in all seriousness just dont, it is really easy to just teach yourself art especially nowadays. and you will know regardless if you have talent or not without art school if you just keep practicing as a hobby and if it turns out you dont…hey! you didnt take up art! you still have a godamn future. hell, I know architects that can do a wayyy better job than me.I might just be feeling bitter from all this bullshit but I dont know back during highschool it was the only talent I thought I had(I know now that im not good at anything)  and I thought it was fate and It took just one year to wipe the dirt from my eyes but yet I pursued thinking I would get better, and like a breeze 5 years has past and I know im fucking screwed. Im so ashamed because Ive wasted my parents hard earned money trying to follow the impossible … dont end up like me
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I can relate! I didn’t go to art school but I was an art major. All my life everyone had been exclaiming over what a great artist I was, how I should “do something” with my art… so I figured I should listen to them — not like I had any other talents. I had a vague notion that I would “go into graphic design.” Back in the dark ages when I went to school there was still a lot of emphasis on non-computer art — the only kind I’m any good at. Doesn’t seem practical anymore to focus on that but people still need to learn the basics, yeah? I digress.
College was really humbling for me. Instead of being one of the top artists in my little high school world, I was with people far more experienced and talented than I. Also I found it difficult to be creative on demand — not a good quality in someone looking to do this for a living. Did you have similar problems? I had some… well, mental issues, I guess is the easy thing to say, and made some bad choices, and dropped out after 2 years.
I suck at graphics on the computer but I have a (sadly neglected) sketchbook and have recently started painting again. I’ve completed two that are now hanging in my house and I feel proud when I see them. Keeping it as a hobby instead of as a means to make a living ensures that it stays enjoyable for me. It takes a different temperament than mine, and perhaps yours, to make it really work. And honestly I have no idea what it’s like out there today for “starving artists.” Probably a great deal of luck required as well. Like an actor really making it in Hollywood, rising above the masses.
I have no problems being creative on demand its just that everything I do turns out mediocre every time… Im working on it and it looks okay but when I wake up I see how crappy it is and I hate it immediately. I just wish I had a little more talent or at least another talent or skill or smarts…. I hate being a burden to my parents
I know exactly what you mean I’ve never lived up to the hype. You know what the worst feeling in the world is? It’s when you see people continually placing their faith and investing in you because in their eyes you are perfect and you know that you’re only going to disappoint them. You feel sorry for them because they are so very kind, poor and foolish.
Do you know what I do, what I am doing right now? At times like this I say the magic words, the motivation behind everything in the world. I don’t know who invented these inspirational words but they are without doubt geniuses. Now, I share them with you all:
Don’t stop,
never give up
hold your head high
and reach the top
Let the world see
what you have got Bring it all back to you
(bring it all back now)
Dream of falling in love
anything you’ve been thinking
of when the world seems
to get too tough Bring it all back to you
( Bring it all back now) na, na, na, na ,na
na, na, na, na ,na
na, na, na, na ,na
na, na Try not to worry
’bout a thing
Enjoy the good times
life can bring
Keep it all inside
you gotta let the feeling show Imagination is the key
‘cos you are your own destiny
You never should
be lonely when
time is on your side. Don’t you know
it’s true what they say
Things are sent
to try you
But your time’s
coming around so don’t you stop
trying Don’t stop,
never give up
hold your head high
and reach the top
Let the world see
what you have got Bring it all back to you
(bring it all back now)
Dream of falling in love
anything you’ve been thinking
of when the world seems
to get too tough Bring it all back to you
( Bring it all back now)
It makes me cry every time.
im still learning in life as i go along, but i wholeheartedly agree.
when i was a little kid i never understood why so many adults hated their jobs
i promised myself the day i wasnt doing my work for fun i would quit.
ive now worked at a job i hate for over 10 years.
people tell me be thankful you have a good job. but i feel like im wasting my life.
all that said i think doing what you love should be everyones #1 in life.
i know a girl about 10 years younger than me.. fantastic artist.. and im really
picky so im sincerely blown away by her talent. well i found out she was
in college to major in psychology and sleeping thru her classes cuz she hates it.
WHY!?
do what you’re passionate about.
do what you enjoy doing.
if you do it primarily for the money, odds are you hate it and will be unhappy.
Of course most of us have or had dreams. We would all like to do the one thing we are passionate about for a living. I’ve always dreamt of working as a beer taster in a brewery. Unfortunately, things didn’t work out and I ended up on here.
We all like the idea of following our dreams, we always hear it from others and that’s always our advice to anyone else. Unless your Fernando Alonso, Roger Federer etc your not going to be fulfilling that ambition.
Instead of following your dreams, what if you stood still and had your dreams come chase you down?
Thats my theory too. If you run around after your dreams, it’s far more likely that you’re going become weary, lose interest or become preoccupied. People that are stranded in the desert make the biggest mistake looking for help. Their chances of survival would have greatly increased if they had just stayed where they were and waited.
@ Age of Aquarius; Yes. The plan at this point is to sit on the couch, drink a beer, and have my dreams come find me. Chasing after them has left me tired and thirsty. If we’re destined to meet, (my dreams and I), they’ll need to start showing some initiative.
@ Cosmic Blip chasing after futile dreams might be a blessing in disguise if it means sitting around drinking beer. You should follow your dreams more often.
Sometimes I poop my pants. I check to see if my dreams are hiding in there. They never are.. Life is awesome.
That sounds very exciting. Although your life aspirations have not been revealed so far, it’s only a matter of time.
This post is about your experience and although it might be the majority, it is not the only kind of experience one can have. Speaking as someone who made a successful career In the creative industries, I can tell you: you CAN NOT teach yourself everything you can learn at Uni. Creatively, no man is an island. You will never improve your craft without constant feedback and mentoring from others. You might find a mentor outside Uni, but the best way to find experienced mentors is a school or Uni.
It takes a combination of three things to succeed in the arts: talent, drive, and sheer blind luck. You need all three. You might have been missing the luck part, its really tough and sorry it didn’t work out for you. But the message you’re broadcasting here is heavily skewed and not very accurate. I would encourage everyone to follow their dreams but to be realistic tht things don’t always go to plan
Don’t listen to people on suicide sites. You’re better off taking advice from a pizza.
I did a year of art school, it is soooooo expensive, I’m still paying it off 10 years later! But there are some skills I picked up that I use everyday.
* Presentation is 90% of why art sells
* Talent is everywhere
* Sales is everything
* Network like crazy
If you can do those things, which they don’t really teach you in many programs, you’ll have a leg up. Also many jobs like people who have artistic skills but have a business head. The combo is deadly. You don’t have to be the best, just love what you do and the rest is, well I haven’t figured that out yet.
🙂
@ Cosmic Blip
Following people on suicide sites is like following tips from a compulsive gambler who’s lost all their money.
I did the same. I spent 4 years with psychology as my major but I didn’t like it. I chose it because if I chose liberal arts, that doesn’t mean shit. My dream was music. I got my BA so I should have been happy. I went for a year to an audio engineering program with the hopes of taking that step to enter the music biz (not for the faint at heart). I busted my ass so hard to achieve this “dream” that I suffered from anxiety and it didn’t help that I have insomnia. I got my certificate in that feild but I am not cut out for it and I have a BA in psychology which I can give 2 shits about. In short, I was living in a delusion that I was going to make it big, fucked myself over, no more dreams, goals, ambition, motivation. I have to pay student loans back and I have no job. Ontop of that I went into a depression and my life has been spiraling downwards for 6 months now because a lot of other shit has been happening in my life durring this time.