I’m pathetic, with my tired eyes and my tangle hair. I just can’t even make myself try anymore. I can’t talk to my friends anymore because I’m afraid that I will break down. I can barely get myself to eat because I see no point. I’m failing school because I gave up. I just want to fall asleep and never wake. But not really asleep because sometimes my dreams are worse then reality. I can’t stand people to touch me, the very feeling of them against make my head pound and me want to throw up. My skin is always crawling and I just want to tear it all off, get rid of it all. I want to stop the migraines and the mood swings. I want people to stop looking at my arms in disgust. I want to stop looking at myself in disgust. I just want to be gone.
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I want to stop looking at myself in disgust?
Stop measuring, stop judging and leave the space empty.
No should’s, no if only, no appeals to the future.
A space, just a space, open, empty, void.
Not terrifying, not terrifying at all.
See yourself breath?
The space breaths,
Just a moment,
A breathe,
Quite
Hey I understand your pain. I was struggling with everyday and I just couldn’t do it. I mean I still am struggling, but less. I fell into the worst depression episode I’ve ever had. I’ve never wanted to die this bad. So I made my life easier. I left school and changed my meds and am going to therapy. At first things got worst, I thought about suicide every other second. Then things got better slowly day by day. I’ve come to reality with suicide. I don’t have the guts to do it. So since I have to and shit I wish I didn’t have to, but since I do have to stay on this earth I’m going to make live as comfortably as I can. I dropped everything that was going in my life so I could fix myself and hopefully be happy again. I still want to die, but things are getting better. You’re not alone. Message me if you want to talk. Be strong <3