Today I found out my “best friend,” of about 5 years, back stabs me.
I always thought she would always be there for me, as I am always here for her.
I’ve been a faithful friend to her, but I keep most things about myself inside.
The thing which always prevents me from telling her about the predicaments I’m in is that she might go out and tell everyone else, because she has. Millions of times.
I’ve always known she back stabs me when she’s around other friends. She rants about me and, literally behind my back, she would immaturely gesture the idea of stabbing or hurting me in some way. Obviously, when I would look back at her, she’d quickly look away and act in a manner which shows she did no such act. I understand she may be doing this as a way to seem funny, or maybe she’s just joking around. But she only directs those actions at me.
She tries to make people think of her as a nice, caring, loving individual. It works most of the time, and she even got me to believe her.
Yeah, this is probably just a teenage situation, but she’s the only person who talks to me, and she knows this.
It sort of hurts a bit. How I always believed us to be really good friends despite the number of times she’s done this to me.
I guess she never really was fond of me. No one really is. That’s what really gets me. The worst part, I have to look to myself for consolation and company when I get lonely.
How many people are there in the world? Ah, 7-8 billion people, right?
And I can’t even find one person in my neighborhood who I can talk to.
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Sorry, but she sounds like a psychopath. Not being funny, she really does. No empathy, cruel, lies, puts on a fake personality for a lot of people, manipulative.
Sadly I’ve known a number of people like this to.
The part that you need to know is that its not you. Cliche, I know, but you’re better off alone until you find someone real to be your friend. I had to go to another country for that to happen! But I found her- she was sweet, and genuine and just got me. (but im back in my own country again) but there are people out there. Are you in high school? Take some summer classes or something in a community school or tennis lessons or anything where there are people not from your school.
Even if you don’t find someone special you may see there are decent people out here. =)
Maybe you can find someone here… We haven’t talked in a while… but how are you lately, Kasa? I’m sorry you’re hurting because of your “friend”… Maybe she’s not even worth it… You should appreciate yourself more, Kasa… Even if you don’t have “social abilities”, that doesn’t even matter… People that are worth it will understand you and appreciate you for who you are…
Someone lacks social abilities, and it sure isn’t you. A real friend would never do pathetic things like that girl does to you. Perhaps she thinks your relationship is so strong that she can use bullying you as some sort of entertainment for her other friends without losing you. I sincerely hope you will find someone who is actually worthy of your company and friendship. Wishing you the best of luck. It really hurts discovering one’s best friend isn’t what they were supposed to be, but things do get better with time, even if you end up not being friends anymore.
I have had a much similar thing. I also had a friend like that who stabbed me in the back. he thing I feel with it is that I shouldnt be threated that way, and neither should you, but on the other hand you lose a friend, a person you talk to and do stuff with.
Man that sucks, I feel you when it comes to the best friend, I once had a best friend who did the same to me too. You now what I did? I cut all ties to that person, she’s like a drug, it feels good when you’re with her but she hurts you in so many ways. Please don’t talk to this person anymore. I would love to have a faithful friend like you, you’re special! Anyways, I too find it funny how there are so many people on this earth and yet I can’t find a single person who is faithful to talk to (again your type is special). Anyway, I’m open to talk to if you want to.
I wouldn’t call her friend, a true friend wouldn’t back stab you. People are like that in this world they smile in your face one minuet and the next they plot against you.
The world is a very big place but yet it is so little, it’s hard to meet real people and then are those where it seems as if we can never make friends. All the people in the world and yet we are all so alone.