I’m sitting on my bed, and all I hear is the rain falling and the wind going crazy. Sometimes I wish there was more sun here. It makes me more depressed looking outside. Today has been another bad day, I feel like I can’t talk to anyone, and I feel so lonely. I’ve lost mostly all my friends because I’ve been with my bf for 2 years and it’s all about him now, which is good because he’s my friend but when he’s not there I feel so alone. Sometimes I feel like he doesn’t understand how much sadness I feel inside, and all the things I’m going through. My mom gets surgery next week, and I’m scared, I have that bottled up inside, and my brother is fighting custody over my nephew, because his ***** mom is an alcoholic and needs help, but everything gets blamed on him. He’s ALWAYS the bad guy. So that’s hurting me, because I know my nephew and my brother aren’t happy. Also my moms been stressed, and she’s always yelling and getting mad and arguing with my dad it’s crazy. Sometimes she makes me feel like shit, and I have so many emotions bottled up inside, I just want to scream. Crying really sucks, especially when there’s no one to talk to :c Hopefully talking to my boyfriend makes me feel better. I’ve recently started to cut, and I did it twice today. It felt good, but I know he gets disappointed.
shit. I wish life was easy.