Rant – my boyfriend…

So I was really excited about finding this site yesterday while looking up ways to kill myself.  I decided to tell my boyfriend, Josh, about the suicide project.  I thought he would be happy that I finally found a place where I could go on a rant about my horrible life.  But sadly, I was mistaken…  He just got mad at me for being sad all of the time.  I’m so sick and tired of him blaming all of my depression and disorders on me.  I mean it’s not my fault that I’m bipolar and suicidal.  Yeah, so what if I self harm?  I have been for six years and it’s seemed to help since I started.  So , what’s the big deal?  God..  I just wish he could understand…