sorry to waste your time…

So my boyfriend an I had this huge fight yesterday.  We both made a deal that if I didn’t cut myself he wouldn’t smoke cigarettes or cigars.  But over the weekend, he smoked a flavored cigar with his friends.  While I realize that it was to celebrate a good weekend, he still broke his promise.  Yes, I realize that we all mess up and make mistakes, but just the fact that he didn’t tell me about it pissed me off.  I even confronted him about it and he fucking went off on me about being mad!  So I went into the bathroom (this happened at school) and I cut on my leg and wrist.  He avoided me for the rest of the day.  It took him until about 9 that night to finally respond to my apologies that I had sent in messages because he wouldn’t answer my calls.  He just went off on me again even after I said I was wrong to go off like I did and make assumptions about things that had nothing to do with him smoking.  So when I got back from bible study, I cut again and cried so much I was hyperventilating.  He finally called me back and he didn’t even care that I cut and was crying about our fight.  So I decided to kill myself.  But sadly, I fell asleep before I could do anything.  Anyway so I was going to do it today, but when I looked at the sleeping medication that I have, I realized it was just vitamins and melatonin that was in the pills, so it’s nearly impossible to overdose on them.  Apparently if I was to overdose it would only make me go into a coma or something…