We all have a reason, what is yours?

I have moments when I’m sobbing on the ground, unable to think of anything besides suicide. There is something so comforting about being able to take away your own life, your own existence. I’ll lay there and cry because no one should hate themself the way I do, no one should be comforted by the thought of death. I am though, we are. That’s something no one knows about me, I’d probably be one of the last people anyone would pin the label suicidal to, I’m always smiling, laughing, and helping others. There is a reason why I haven’t followed through with my plans though, if I’ve learned anything in the past few year it’s that we all have a reason to live. You may be thinking “Maybe you do, but not me..” Everyone has a reason though. My reason is that I know I can’t be restricted by my parents forever, I know I’m a good person in my heart, and I dream of the day that I grow up and have children of my own. I’ve always wanted to be a mom, I’d tell my kids I love them, I’d teach them right from wrong, I would support their every passion, and I would be everything my parents were not. I’m 18 so I’m going to wait until after college, after I meet the right person, but it’s a reason to live. We all have a reason. When I’m sobbing on the ground, unable to think of anything besides suicide, I let myself lay there and cry, then I get up, wash my face, and carry on with life. I will be strong. I can do this, and so can you. After all, nothing lasts forever, not evens suicidal thoughts.