I cried myself to sleep last night because I was so frustrated everything just felt pointless and I was tired of feeling stuck and just wish I never got depressed in the first place. I feel like being bullied caused a lot of problems for me that led me to depression and I feel like if I dealt with bullying by talking to someone and telling those who bullied me that what they were saying was hurting me instead of putting my energy into hobbies then I wouldn’t be here. I developed so many bad habits because of it for instance: I hold all my pain in, I shut people out, I have no social skills, I don’t trust anyone,I don’t believe any of the nice things people say to me ,and I feel like my problems are stupid and I can handle them alone.
I remember crying when I got back from school and feeling helpless and like I should just suck it up  and I remember I got so upset that I would pray to God to change me so I would be liked that I was prettier and more interesting gradually I began to dislike who I was and I believed all the things people said now I just wish so many times I could have done something to prevent all this and I feel so stupid for being stuck on this because it’s not easy to get over ,I just feel all alone I’ve tried to lift myself up but I can’t
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You recognized your bad habits. That’s huge. One step at a time. You’re in the right direciton.
Yeah I just feel upset because it took me this long to realize I should not have thought of myself that way
Be generous. Congratulate yourself, hopefuldreamer. You’ve done good work.
I’ll try it’s just hard
It’s sd that bullies don’t realize what they’re doing to someone, what kind of impact and consequences it has for the person they bully. Wish there would be better solutions against bullying. Please remember: you are not the only one, we are here to support you and to get you through this hard time, but you are the one that has to do it! Good luck hun <3.
Thanks I just wanted to open up about it because it affected me more than I thought
don’t hate yourself – what good will that do? think of things that will result in good! that doesn’t mean “love yourself!” or be all big headed and self centered, but surely you should have respect for yourself, and regard for your life. what you are looking for is peace and contentment, so pray for that.
I do but I’m so tired of it all at the moment everything is frustrating me so I don’t want to try