first off, i just want to say that this may be provoking. sorry.
i have brunt myself, i have severly bruised myself, i have aerosol bruised myself. but i havent cut in over 3 months.
i used to be almost happy about my cuts. sometimes i would look in the mirror and smile at my pale thighs covered in red slashes , but other times i would stay up for hours at night crying into my pillow wishing they would dissapear. now im neither. the scars are starting to fade, but i know that i will have a constant reminder of my type of addiction
it feel like this is the only thing i have ever acheived by myself. and thats ecause there isnt anyone here to help me.
there is you though, you on sp, so thank you, but it just not the same as being able to hold someones hand or have them hug you as you cry.