My life…..its miserable…why…..because I am alone…I used to have a loving mother and dad…..three brothers and a sister…I used to be happy….
Now…..
I am sad…..all the time, and the worst part….whoever does truly see my torn heart….usually never talk to me again…”Your too depressing” or “I’m sorry but I want to have a Happy friend”…..no one takes my hand…I ask for help..i plead…with my eyes….I’m dying inside….I try to scream ” Help me…I can’t take this no more….”
I hate my appearance the most…..doesn’t everyone like me hate the same thing…. I hate people…they stab you in the back…it hurts…..please…..just stop…look…and see through my eyes…because i’m getting tired…and I don’t want to hold myself up any more….
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You dont have to hold yourself up all the time… You can lay against sonething… And its ok to be sad but its ok to be happy as well… We dont have to run a fools errand and live with guilt and pain…. Its ok to be alone sometimes its when we feel the most pain that being alone is best in order to spare those around us the burden…
-Theres always a choice.. You might like it but there is a choice…
HollywoodHero
*There is always a choice.. You might NOT like it but there is always a choice
there are times in my life wen i wish someone would hold my hand and help me through my life but then i realize that im ugly n i just cry a little inside. the one thing being ugly has taught me over the years is that it can make you a stronger better person. i used to be a pretty good looking guy but over the years iv had acne scars and chemical burns ravage my skin up but i can tell u for sure that there is someone out there that will see past ur flaws and love u. i dont hav any relationship experience but i do no that there r good people out there just keep looking and youl eventually find one
…..I’ve never had a best friend….everyone says you have one but I don’t and I’ve been holding myself up for a long time……and….idk how much longer I can do this….thank you ….it’s nice knowing someone out there, knows what its like….to go through hell….and make it back…alive…. recently…I’ve been told, I think too much, and that I should think more about myself, so….I might have to see a cousler or whatever to get this depression…off my mine and…I also…might have a sleeping disorder which…sucks because I wanted to…play sports….and I get tired extremely easy….
Do you know what willpower is….
I know…..I use it to get around, to show people i’m strong and that I can go through a battle and survive with only scars from past mistakes or hurt….
In all my life I’ve never called ANYONE ugly ever…..I look past every inch of their outside appearance and see what lies in their heart…if I see something I don’t like…I leave that person be…..because my gramma told me that beauty lies in the heart…. :’)
You say you used to have a loving mother and ect. Well what happened if you don’t mind me asking
When i was 5 my mom started to leave me alone with my 10 year old cousin and she started to leave me for longer periods of time eventually she came back but she always smelt of liquor and drugs.
I started growing up and i raised my three younger brothers and my little sister and my mom continued drugs and we moved a lot, i made no friends because i never learned how to communicate and time pasted and things were starting to look up…my mom told me she would quit smoking and drinking and she Even went to treatment, but shortly after, i only discovered she did that so she didn’t look suspicious when she stayed in our basement, she lied to me, and my family, she never told me how much she loved me until it was too late….i told her about what my uncle did to me when i was 12(I was raped), and i was telling her when i was 13..she said “It’s okay”……i stayed quiet for 2 months and i couldn’t take it…..me and my siblings went to foster care only to end up back in my moms care 2 more times……I’m 16 now…and I’m now permanently in foster care…i got me and my bros and sis out of that hell hole…..i feel very hurt inside and i don’t trust anyone, i wish life didn’t turn out this way…….but I’m OK cause I’m safe and i finally have some people who say they love me and i am glad….i still feel sad a lot but I’m OK…
I say your mom doesn’t deserve you.. There’s not many teens that’ll give up their life and lay it down for their siblings, you’re so hurt because you have a big heart and people sometime miss that because they’re so busy in their own life’s being selfish and all; don’t let anyone rob you of your happiness, I bet your little brothers and sisters look up to you and you should be proud of that, you’ve got balls to go through those things and still be standing. People with golden hearts are rare to find but I think you may be one of them.