dear mom dad if they take me away for trying to kill myself this time or if get what i want and die your just going to have to deal. Im tired man im just really tired.Sick of never feeling happy no matter what i do sick of relapsing.Sick of medication.sick of therapist always canceling.
well im done know it wasnt your fault but rather all mines cause i didnt try hard enough.maybe ill get my wish this time and regret what i did.Maybe ill back out of this thing monday but i very much doubt it. Theres a lot of bad things happening to good people in this world.My life gone will be no different and people will feel sad and sorry then move on.the end.
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what exactly is your problem?
im twenty now.My life is filled with therapy that does no good for me.I feel depressed and hopeless all the time cause i know im a waste of space.Each day goes by and my life is nothing. Im the only twenty year old i know of in my family who cant seem to beat her own depression.Things just set me off.Like the fact that this new therapist canceled on me today.even though it was because of an emergency.we dont talk about much of anything when we do have our sessions.And theres always this ackward silence and i just cant relate to her.I miss my old therapist.I miss having people in my life who actually care.I told my best friend tat i was going to drink rubbing alcohol on monday and i barely got a reaction.Maybe its because she attempted suicide to and were both crazy.The point is im not getting the best of help now and its affecting me.
theres also all this tension at home.My mom i see her struggle and i worry shes just going to snap and walk out on us.I cant handle that or her threats of it.I worry what will i do when my parents arent there to keep getting me out of situations or help me get situated in life.
Im not able to survive this life.Im just not.So no junnybrown289 i cant stop and rameesha93 thats my problem.
sure i have people to talk to but they dont understand me.So it makes me feel as if i have no one.I dont want to talk to my mom cause well she works two jobs alone to support 5 other people and well shes got enough on her plate.My dad doesnt understand me enough for me to talk to him.Friends dont care or are in it for themselves.They want me to put into are friendship but they dont want to give back.
I also dont care to much for this new therapist.So yeah im alone and i will probably always be alone.
I cant live life knowing one day ill be homeless or so messed up i cant think for myself.I cant live life knowing that i might lose everyone i love one day even if death is supposed to be natural.Im just scared man.im scared this situation wont turn out right no matter what i do.Do i really want to die hell no but i have too in order to stop feeling so much.to much.
Daer pasion can like wait.? Cause you like young. Hold it. Will you feel the same at 20.? or 30.? I say wait
Oh dear , I am 20 and depressed too but my problems are different thn yours but no one’s problems can be ignored.
So you have people to talk to but you still feel lonely?