Hi everyone my name is Sunflower. I have been a member of this sight for a while now (over a year i think maybe 2). This sight has helped me tremendously. When I had no one I came here to talk and express my feelings. Ive made friends here; some of whom havent come on for a while and I hope are doing well. When  I say I love you all i mean it. My life has been hell, confusing and oh so very lonely and SP has been my light through all the darkness. Anyone who I havent talked to on here i do wish you all luck. I wish you peace, however that may come. I wish you happiness and much love through this life time and beyond. Because of recent circumstances with my mother and brother realizing i blog on  a suicide sight i can no longer post here. I have deleted all of my entries; which will hopefully will never be found drifting around in cyber space. I have also decided to not post on here because of 2 of my friends. 2 friends that discovered this sight and have since “left me.” 2 of my closest friends who no longer find my company enjoyable. I can no longer remain anonymous on this sight therefore I must set it free. If either of those 2 people (LB or KF) read this know that I love you both with all of my heart. I know the feelings are not returned but ive come to terms with that realization in my own way. I may come back to this sight and read posts and occasionally comment if i have insight that may help but this is my official goodbye. I’m finishing highschool, heading off to college and starting a new chapter of my life. I’m not sure what the future has in store for me, i’m not sure if i will survive 4 more years of school much less 1 more week on this earth but I am going to move forward, wherever that takes me. I love you all stay strong, and just breathe.
Much love
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Peace and love to you sunflower. Thank you for all your beautiful words, you are a really lovely person and I wish you the best with all my heart! <3
Friend of my heart.
I am 1 year here. And i have seen or even commented in most of your post
Take good care of yourself too!…and you meant “site” not “sight” right?
Sunflower, I am sorry I missed you.
I hope things are going well for you. Your always so hard on yourself, your friends still love you, they just don’t understand this site or what your doing on hear. You should try and talk it out with them. They may surprise you.
You will love college, you will meet people just like you, who love dancing and music and you will find yourself. I know it.
Keep dancing like no one is watching petal.
<3
Ruins
PS, never forget, your awesome 🙂
ive missed you too 🙁 i hope youve been doing ok? and i hope everyone on here is feelinga a blittle better?
I always comment on your posts. Never anything useful, something nonetheless.
I want you to succeed because you have a lot going in your favour. I don’t want you to have any regrets. It’s your life and you have to look after it. No one else is going to take responsibility.
It’s ok to experiment with stuff, eventually you have to think about your future.
I would say that having a carefree attitude is great but also decide on the things you’d like to experience and achieve. Most important of all is to be kind and be generous no matter how difficult things get. You’ve got a great personality and there’s a lot there to work with. Don’t let anything upset you.