I don’t initiate conversations.
I don’t call people.
I don’t really care.
Yet I’m frustrated as all hell about it.
Really, I think I should just set myself on fire in the yard.
Return all the carbon and nutrients I’m wasting back to the dirt.
Instead, I’ll go back to organizing the insane junk heap in the basement and creating a space that doesn’t make me want to bash my head into walls whenever I have to look at it.
Because I’m sure that’ll help.
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Hello stranger.
You are a prison of yourself. I can see how that might be frustrating.
You care so much it’s dnagerous to start, because it’s a slippery slope once it comes out.
It’s not a bad quality but it can sure make for a hard life.
You want help.? So ask. Orange first can you get a job.? I know boring. As for woman. Going ask you a Q Greek Why are asexull.?
@one_day: That’s part of it. Recently, when I’ve made little pokes out of my shell, I find talking to be an enormous waste of time, though. I don’t seem to enjoy much of anything aside from organizing things these days.
ORINGE I ASK YOU A Q.
ORINGE I ASK YOU A Q.
Cause you a lonely and need a love.?
How many ways can I rephrase the answer? Let me find out.
“No.”
“Nada.”
“Nein.”
“Nil.”
“Negative.”
“Uh, no.”
“Not applicable.”
I don’t want to keep going – it’ll take me all night if I don’t stop here.
And i’m not gay hitting. Orange people are you no. The trick is to find people who are in to the same thing’s bro.
Scared E cat. Ok then then have a happy life without it.
I’m not into the same things as other people. It’s kinda screwy, but I can relate to this part of a note attributed to the Son of Sam… “I can’t get out but I look out the attic window and watch the world go by. I feel like an outsider. I am on a different wavelength then everybody else.”
I am a space alien. I would like to return to my home planet, but I seem to have lost my map.
@donnie, I think that orange doesn’t like it when you ask if he’s asexual so you should probably stop.
@orange do you hve OCD?
OCD – check.
ADHD – check.
Right and left hemispheres are both accounted for. lol
Fake just scared to love. And if you love you will lost. It can work orange if you get a JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So you love and lose. Round 1 round 3 is better.
Donnie has a point. Are you scared, orange?
I lived with a girl who had OCD, but she had therapy and was more or less fine, she just cleaned a bit more than the average housemate. It was awesome. One day before I found out I made a joke that she had OCD, she replied ‘yes I was in therapy for several years for it’. I thought ‘of course you were.’ I think if you channel OCD you can do amazing things
It’s not about fear, it’s more about control or the lack thereof – imagine anxiety rising in a crescendo until it’s almost enough to blot out the sun and pull stars out of the sky (as far as you’re concerned) and that’s close to what it can feel like when it gets out of hand. It’s like trying to act normally during a constant earthquake that doesn’t seem to want to ever stop – houses collapsing, streets calving, sirens wailing, people screaming… but nobody else sees or feels or hears it. I tried therapy for it about a decade ago and it wasn’t much help – antidepressants and anxiolytics are the only things that really put a dent in it.