I feel done

For a long time i have felt but a hollow shell and unwanted/loved. NO matter what the incident is I am the one who is to yell at. Feeling unloved by my parents is the worst, I have never lived up to my sisters, straight A students, went to college, got good jobs. Me i don’t even get a second look by my parents. Listening to all the accomplishments my sisters have is annoying. I had always showed my love towards my family but since birth i was hated. Locked outside to “play” while my sisters watched TV. Sent to my room where their was only a bed, my sisters shared a room, had a TV. I would tell my parents what i wanted to do when i grew up which was a sports car driver, and they told me sports car drivers looked better and got better grades than me. Now i want to be dead when i am older. Slowly but surly i have lost touch with life and have been waiting for death since. I wish i lived up to my sisters but even they don’t “have the time” to answer a phone call from me. Mabe they will when it is from my parents saying i am dead. done of them are worth having me in their lives, i am 17, 6ft 250 pounds of muscle, bench 550 lbs and quarterback of the football team. Soon they will see how much i wish to be gone and will know the pain i am IN EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE.