I wish everyone would know

I wish everyone would know that, just because I am under 18, does not mean that I am always confused, selfish, ungrateful, going through a “phase,” overdramatic, or anything else that makes me sound like I’m considered dysfunctional. Every time I have told someone I am gay, I always get asked the same things: “Why do you think that?” “Are you confused?” “Don’t you think this might just be a phase?” Sorry, but after being on the receiving end of those questions for a while, it’s officially old and, quite frankly, annoying. I’m the only person in my family going through this and have no one else to talk to that knows what it’s like. No one in my life will ever have the experiences I am having right now being a gay teen. Hearing people say “That’s so gay” as a substitute for “That’s so stupid” is really frustrating because they don’t seem to understand why that is considered offensive. Isn’t it obvious? You’re using the word “gay” to describe things you do not like. Of course I can’t express being offended to them. Who knows what would happen if they learned my secret! That’s what I’m tired of also. Always having to keep it a secret from everyone because the world is not mature enough to handle “such a thing.” My school is Catholic and all-girls, so I’m especially an outcast. I can’t talk to any of my classmates because I’m so awkward. I’m an atheist (don’t hate me for it!) lesbian, so I’ve got two strikes against me. Due to personal experiences, I’ve no reason to believe in a God. They don’t say it directly, but they expect everyone in my school to have a boyfriend/husband in life. They hardly ever say “spouse.” To put it simply, I’m a lesbian atheist who plays electric guitar, loves classic rock, doesn’t care for popular things often, and talks too maturely for others to understand. Ouch. 🙁