Hi again. Sorry I have not posted anything for a while. But I’ve been thinking…
I really and truly hate myself. There’s never actually been a moment in my life in which I’ve looked at myself and thought, “I love me,” to be honest. I just can’t help but feel as though I often mess things up and not please others as best I can. No matter how hard I try in school, I feel as though it’s not good enough. School is really frustrating and tiring, and every day I think about killing myself, whether I’m in a good mood or not. It just happens, and I don’t know why. With semester finals coming up, this is basically the time of year in which my thoughts of suicide are at their highest. Also, my sister is graduating this year, and moving up state, about 5 hours away, to start university. I don’t know how I’m going to adjust to that, because I’m so used to having her around. Â :'(