I don’t want to hurt. I don’t want to be alone. I don’t want to hate myself. I don’t want to cut. I don’t want to starve myself. I don’t want to push everyone away. I don’t want to be tired. I don’t want to be afraid of myself.
I want to be happy. I want friends. I want to be loved. I want to love myself. I want to be happy with the way I look. I want to stop making my parents worry. I want to live.
You learn really early in life that you never get what you want so we settle for what we have. I don’t want to do that.
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Then try not to sam. What you say.?
Easy Anwaer. Right.
This entire entry describes my life perfectly. I read the first paragraph and literally thought they could have been my words. I struggle everyday with wanting to love instead of hate, but I don’t know how. I too have cut myself. I have starved. I have forced myself to throw up. I have worried everyone. I have hated myself more than anyone should ever hate anything. I would really love to talk to you more and share the things I have done to help myself, please find time to email me azgirl426 @ aol . com (without the spaces) You are not alone!
the thing is it’s not that easy for me. it’s not a choice it’s what I go through. It might be easy for other people I don’t know and you don’t really know either.
I’ll sent you an email. 🙂
Okay good! I think we could really help each other 🙂
Good. don’t settle for something you’re not happy with. Keep fighting for the things you want, it’s harder but more rewarding in the end.
This describes exactly how I feel. I couldn’t have said it better myself.