Tonite… I gave up… I am empty now… It happened right in front of you.. It all went away, and I could see things clearly, without emotion…
Tonite.. I accpted that I am not good enough, and I never will be.. That I never have been, It’s nobody’s fault but mine.. I dont know why.. I have always tried.. I have always failed.. I dont know why, but it doesn’t make sense to blame anyone else.. It can either be a fault in me that everyone else sees, or everyone but me is at fault.. whether I see it, know what it is, or accept it, the odds are stacked against me.. “It” is me, not everyone else..
Tonite.. I looked into the past to see my future, as I always do.. It wont be long before you have shut me out of your life again, this time instead of slamming the door, you are shutting it inch by inch.. It makes it hurt more, knowing it’s coming and watching the light turn into shadows inch by inch behind the closing door..
Tonite.. I gave up… on the things that kept me going, thinking that I could be better, that I wanted the things I had,I gave up on hope, and love… I gave up on everything.. Now I dont have to live up to anything.. It makes it easy, looking at the world as I was meant to, without feeling, or caring, just like yesterday..
Tonite.. I no longer dream.. I have always been a dreamer, forever chasing rainbows, like Alice.. I have been here before, itis familiar, almost warm.. seems like a long time ago, it seems like yesterday.. I will never dream again.. Not again.. Tomorrow is just like yesterday.. And yesterday is gone…
Tonite I changed my mind…Â mind controls body.. I changed everything about myself.. changed into what I have been running away from it is what I been running toward…
Tonite.. I took a step toward my last ditch.. its funny they only ones who called me back…
Tonite.. I gave up.. I am empty now.. There is nothing left..
Tonite.. I dont care anymore…
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Anyone can see the future.. With uncanny accuracy.. Just look into the past…
Tomorrow is Yesterday…
you have a nice name.