Things I’ve Been Doing Lately:
-Cutting: My wrist, my thighs…
»My thighs are my canvas. I have carved ‘Eons’ ‘Why Me?’ ‘Fuck Your Friendship’ ‘Wretched’ ‘Divine’ ‘You Ruin Everything’ and some abstract lines in the past….oh, thirty days.
-Listening to darker music: The Cure, Cradle of Filth, Nine Inch Nails, Marilyn Manson, and some Black Veil Brides
-Writing poetry…and reading some.
»Writing: I wrote something shitty for my close friend, who I’ve been falling for.
° “Let’s Be Vampires”
Let’s not go out into the real world,
Let’s stay in all day long.
Fuck the humans and their greed
They can’t tell right from wrong.
Abortions, murders, suicides
Slow eradication
Murdering the corporate bastards
Who bought their education.
Recluses, hermits
Whatever, we’ll be free.
Let’s get away from government
That bloodsucking society.
Who cares about the real world?
We’re safe here, all alone.
Even though you’re far away
We’re closer on the phone.
Who cares about society?
They think we won’t succeed.
But we can prove them wrong, you see.
No souls to them we’ll feed.
Recluses, hermits
Whatever, we’ll be free.
Let’s get away from government
That bloodsucking society.
»Reading….That close friend has been letting me read some of his poetry as well, including the one he wrote me the day he, apparently, fell in love with me.
° “She Lies broken her wings torn
Just the other day I had a date with death
She cried and told me of her lies
And all the hearts she’d broken
In the end
she kissed me
and stole away my breath
In the end she left me hanging
And that’s all I’m saying
I just wish she took me with her
then maybe I’d know where I’m going
Just fly me away
On great big wings
As we try to go the same way
But this world feels so torn
Why won’t you let me pay?”