I’ve been feeling some fear lately, and some anxiety too. Â I quit my job recently, I had too, it was only going to get worse. Â I have some savings to live on, but I don’t know where I go from here. Â My brain is damaged, it doesn’t work right, and you can read my first post if you want the details, but basically I did it under the influence of drugs a long time ago and things have gotten progressively worse over the last few years. Â Many hospitalizations, a lot of suicidal times. Â Lately, I haven’t really gone there, I’m much more curious as to what’s going to happen if I stay alive. Â I don’t feel like I can function well enough to take care of myself and just a while ago I asked myself, what would I do if Â “I had no pressure.” Â Kind of like, “What would I do if I won the lottery?” Â Even if my landscape was devoid of stress…I don’t know. Â I don’t feel alive.