all my life , I’ve been that fat girl, the ugly girl. The girl noone wants to be around. Okay . I’ve had my fights and stuff but I just still don’t get why nooone has ever liked me. I’ve had ftoends and boufroends but I always find out what they really think of me.. its always my personality .. Im numb.. all I do sometimes is cry. My dad used to be an alcoholic now my mom is an abusive alcoholic.. my first love is now gay.. Im 17 years old.. I weigh 200 pounds. I have acne all over my face and body I have scars all over my atms and legs from self harming, and its just making me uglier. I always just want to commit suicide because I feel me dying would be the best thing for everyone. .me and my sister have a strained relationship .. sometimes I don’t even feel like ahes my sister.. I don’t even see my 1 year old niece because I just dread being around my sister … ive been depressed and bullied since I was just a lil kid.. I always fake a smile and try to act like I’m happy .. and it always winds up making me look stupid. I hate my face. I hate my body. I hate my family. I hate my life. I’m just better off dead. Theres so much more to add to this. But I really don’t have all day :/ right now I’m crying … cause stiff is just going on now that I d
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Yeah it feels terrible to be just discarded by everyone. I guess that’s part of why I want to die too. Thanks for sharing a part of your story diamond1473 and welcome aboard.
Welcome to TSP (The Suicide Project) 🙂 . I’m going to let you know that everyone here loves you (whether we know you or not) and we will try to help you as best as we can. The support system here is great, and we’re all here for you. If you want to talk to me further about this, Email me: frejashinepaws@gmail.com k?
me 2 i’m here sparrows130@gmail.com i understand the feeling of wanting to disapear and those people are hideous for saying that . There the ugly one’s and that’s why there not going to ascend any where and screw them and 200 pounds is not that bad actually you can still lose wieght and not struggle too much if your determind to get your revenge im 170 now and i lost sum weight so far . From looking for encouranging options for me and slowly taking steps and being patient with my self and distracting my mind into some thing any thing looking at every thing i can discover that would keep me interested and keep diging until you seek what your seeking you self
Weight can be lost, acne can be treated and minimized, and doesn’t matter much if you’re otherwise pleasant to be around, and find people with similar interests and opinions, with whom to interact.
Get motivated, take better care of yourself, lose the weight, become independent, get away from your family (you don’t have to completely disown them, but distance is good), and develop yourself as best you can, into as much as possible of the you you want to be.