I want an answer

I’ve been trying to figure this out for years. I’ve always had “mommy/daughter” issues. But they’re one-sided. I know we have them, she doesn’t. I’ve tried to explain to her that I don’t like what she does or how I am being treated, and she just brushes it off. I mean sure, we have our great moments. Yesterday, we went to Southlands Mall, (It’s in CO), and she actually offered to go into Hot Topic. I was very surprised, but then realized that she wouldn’t approve of anything I wanted to get. So I said no, and followed her into Bath and Body Works. She’s pretty tolerable, but, I think I’m afraid of her. When I wake up in the morning, I listen outside my door to see if she’s awake. If she is, I stay in bed until she comes and wakes me up. If my dad is awake (and at home), I go out of my room, make some Chai Latte, and sit on the back deck with him. Of course we don’t talk, but I guess it’s better than nothing. Then when she wakes up, I try to avoid her at all costs. I try not to talk to her and try not to be around her. I hate it when she talks to me, no matter what it is. I mostly don’t like to talk to her because I’m afraid she’ll tell me to do something. Is that just a normal 14 year old’s laziness? Because there’s also times when she’ll just shout out random things that she reads on the internet, and NO BODY CARES. Even when my friends are over, they tell me they don’t like her. I mean, I agree. I don’t either. But I can’t really tell what it is.

Like right now. She said my name, and is talking about random stuff I don’t care about. Ugh.

…Still talking…

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And talking…

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AND TALKING.