Sometimes I wish I had something horrible happen to me just so someone that “loves” me would notice that I am not okay. I’ll thought of the typical poison,cutting,drowning. But now everytime I’m by a road I want to jump infront of it. I’ve even thought o0f how much love and care I would feel if I got cancer. . . I feel selfish and on the right track all at the same time. Am I the only one?
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Of course you’re not the only one 🙂 just know that we are all here to talk if you need us …I hope that people finally open their eyes and see how amazing you are. Remember, life is beautiful, including you.
Thank you very much. I hope it gets easier for you too!
Its kind of funny, I’ve been wishing the opposite. I find myself hoping the next person I meet doesn’t have to find out just how screwed up I am. That one day they won’t get brave enough to ask how I got my scars. That I could walk around in a bikini and show off like all the other girls. I feel like I live out of pity. When I was little I would pray on a rosary that something would happen to me to stand out and be noticed. That I could be liked. After everything that has happened since then, I could have just waited until I bloomed in to my place in the world. Until someone noticed me for who I was and made me feel special and important for how strong I (might) had been. Instead of looking for the ways to fit in right then and there.
Now I’m beginning my bloom all over again. I become strong enough to accept myself. All I was after the trauma was a point of interest. Now I’m just a pity case.