One of the worst nights I’ve had in some time. I cut for the first time in months. I just can’t take it anymore. It feels like I roam the earth each day as a zombie, and I just don’t feel alive anymore. Fuck it. I just don’t want to do it. I would love to be the owner of a small pistol right now, and after seeing how everything has played out, I find it very unlikely that I will allow myself to live for much longer. I know no one cares, but I needed to talk about this, and I have no friends that are there when I need them. Thank you to anyone who actually takes the time to read my shitty writings. It means a lot more than you think…
They are not shitty. I just read it and I can relate to the zombie like existence. Im really sorry about the cutting. I had a crap day too. Not that that helps you but I had to fight self destructive feelings. I hope for you that you can have some peace tonight. xx <3
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I hope you are feeling better. I am sorry for the cutting. It always hurts a bit more when you haven’t done it for awhile. I hurt myself this evening for the first time in a long time, which is what made me register on this website.