General living another day by FTW0990 6/19/2013 written by FTW0990 6/19/2013 s Aggressive NatureBarleyDecent CarFaggotFalse HopeFather And MotherGi BillIntriguesLaughMilitary LawNavyNbspPaycheckPleasureRough TimeSuicideSupervisorVirginWalmartWrong Side 11 comments 0 Email Related posts 9/25/2022 priorities 9/24/2022 Anti Social Media 9/24/2022 9/24/2022 9/24/2022 9/24/2022 9/23/2022 Thinking about taking the toaster in the bath 9/23/2022 the biggest attempt i’ve ever made 9/23/2022 Just to end it all 9/23/2022 11 comments MiniWiconi7 6/19/2013 - 7:40 am When we have run our course and have fallen short of our dreams, then we get to that dry place, that deserted place where we feel alone and realize our failures through the eyes of regret. We can choose to stay there and die there as many have by ending it or we can restart. It wasn’t until I got to that deserted place tormented by suffering and loss that I realized that my way of living was getting me no where. I have had a belief in God for most of my life but never took that to another level which is what we must do if we want this restart. How do we do that? We yield to him each and every day as we learn to trust him and learn to follow his ways. It takes a renewing of your mind from countless years of being filled with this world’s value which are contrary to God’s laws. It all begins with choice, our choice, a choice so deeply within us that it has to be real because we can’t con the Lord. He knows everything about us and despite that he loves us and will turn our lives around in only we honor him with our firstfruits. Firstfruits meaning putting him first in everything by turning from those things that are imbedded in darkness. Choice is what we are given and our minds give us that power. From reading your post, you have already failed because you conditioned your mind to failure and like you said, you take very little pleasure in life now. It is getting down to the core of the issue with you, and sometimes God gets us to that point so we will turn to him. If only we choose to. Your story is my story and that deserted place almost caused me to exit this life but I made a choice. So thankful I did. Be strong my friend. You’re in the valley of the shadow of death but you don’t have to stay there. Log in to Reply FTW0990 6/19/2013 - 7:46 am please don’t shove your religion down my throat.. I can wear and talk any way I please. I can listen to whatever I want and I can also watch and entertain myself anyway I want. I am glad you are trying to help but I don’t want to be sucked into a religion of any kind. No Allah, no God, no Jesus, I don’t believe in those fables. This is a free country and I believe in the 1st and 2nd amendments to be free and fight back. Freedom of religion ! Log in to Reply MiniWiconi7 6/19/2013 - 8:00 am I wasn’t talking about religion. I was talking about a relationship. But you are very right. You do have a choice. No one shoves anything anywhere unless we choose to allow it. Log in to Reply FTW0990 6/30/2013 - 2:39 am Oh okay. Sorry for snapping. Log in to Reply telly34 6/19/2013 - 11:40 am I am kind of the same way. I tend to be too passive with people sometimes. Be patient and forgiving with yourself. The world is already a hard enough place anyway. I am not exactly what you would call a ladies man either, but I am sure that you will find someone when you stop worrying about it. Losing your virginity doesn’t change who you are as a person. I am sure that you can find a job you like because places are different. You have your whole life ahead of you and I would like to see you happy again 🙂 Log in to Reply flatus 6/19/2013 - 12:27 pm Dayum bro you rilly hit the nail on da head: “I want to find a woman, a job, get a good home, get a decent car, and live safely. None of that is happening.” Wow I’m in the same boat. I got the fuck-its though someone else can have my share I ain’t gonna make a fuss. My life seems like a piece of crap anyways. Log in to Reply FTW0990 6/30/2013 - 2:39 am If you were to go , The world would find someone else to screw over. Hopefully someone who deserves it. My life is nothing but crap. I am not going to make a fuss either. Just put the bullet in the side of my head and this world can fuck someone else over. Log in to Reply shadowclone0 6/30/2013 - 8:00 am I was totally suicidal back when I started college.. I just learned to duck my head, talk to no one, and concentrate on my classes. If wasn’t fun but I’ve done good in college at least. I think you can too! Just don’t say “I’m probably going to fail” because then you can’t make yourself try as hard.. Unless you did bad in highschool, college isn’t so bad until higher level classes really.. try to hang in there! 🙂 Log in to Reply Shinjim 6/30/2013 - 9:13 am I am so sorry. I have nothing useful to say, but I want to tell you that I am just like you, you are not alone. If I can suggest anything, it’s that going into college courses expecting to fail may drag you down to the point where you will fail them. You are not guaranteed to fail, though I understand where you are coming from, why you feel that way (I am just like you). Be prepared to succeed as well. And about Walmart, can you complain to your state’s Department of Labor and Attorney General’s office? Log in to Reply FTW0990 7/1/2013 - 12:15 am I never thought of that… can I just call the AG just like that? I live in New Hampshire Log in to Reply killswitchon 7/1/2013 - 2:08 am hey man, feel the same way. im 24 turning 25 pretty soon and i feel like i got shit all to show for my life. its a shitty fucking feeling. lets be honest. u dont want to die without experiencing sex. im sure you’re an attractive guy. i mean just start using an online dating website. or get an escort if you want it that bad. i know you got a good head on your shoulders just by reading this post. im naturally a more passive aggressive person too. have been my whole life even though i tried to pass off that i was more direct for a while. people do take advantage of that. its all about learning to speak up and use your voice and getting away from those people who make you feel small and used. im sure you’ve heard all of this before. if you were in the navy im sure you’re in ok shape as well. start working out. get yourself feeling good about how you look. get some new clothes. write down a plan of what you want in life. how you’re going to get it. small measurable goals. even if the goal was to change your living environment. whatever comes to mind first when you think of the word change. thats what you need to do. fuck those bastards at wal mart too. fuck all the haters. you’re a likeable guy don’t let the opinion of a few sheep rattle the heart of a lion(you). do it. 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