Hello, all
I feel like my mind is falling apart. I can’t remember anything and I have no sense of self. Nothing matters and nothing makes me happy.
However, I really do want to enjoy my life. I just want to be someone else.
I want to erase my current mind and start over again.
I also think that I might have an undiagnosed mental illness because of my rapidly-shifting moods, negative internal voices, and suicidal obsessions.
I just don’t want to take medication and go even more insane.
Can anyone else relate?
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I understand some of what your going through, sometimes I feel like I could be happy if I had a whole new body but im sure if I got it I still wouldn’t be happy all the time. I am just sick. im lucky tho a big part of the time im ok its just when the depression comes on I feel like im going insane at times. My memory is horrible since 23 because of depression prob or my depersonalization or maybe disasociation. Sometimes I cant rem if something happened yesterday or the day before or like I have stopped and pumped gas and couldn’t rem doing it but I knew I did cuz I had gas in the car. Have been diagnosed with so many mental illnesses im sure I cant have them all tho lol it also drives me crazy wishing I really new what I have. as for meds I am not taking them anymore just because I don’t want to have to rem to take them everyday for the rest of my life
It was like I was reading my diary. I understand you. This is why i OD not to die die but to sleep for a while until my mind repairs, you know?
Yep. I refuse to take medicine for the sme reason. I’d rather just ride things out and let the mental anguish go away on its on and will only use medicine when I absolutely have to..