My feelings

My past is a bad one   
I’ve learnt to hide
But some of you know it 
I can see in your eyes
So what do I do 
Where do I hide 
What are you thinking 
With misunderstood eyes
I carry my shame  
It’s all my fault 
 My life full of torture
I hide in my house
The silence not lasting
I am just the mouse 
The look in your eyes 
It drives me insane 
 Maybe just a smile 
Can ease my pain 
You don’t know my side 
It’s story untold 
With pen to paper 
All soon will be told 
So as we reflect 
And wait for an ending 
What will it become
When I’m not mending
Friend or foe 
We will all soon discover 
But most of you can’t handle
What you will discover 
A friend 4 me
Is being published
By the time you read it
I will be a nothing
My name will be lost
In a past that’s a blunder.