…paranoia?

Even if you’re sure it isn’t, most people are sure it is, and being told otherwise will elicit certain highly disruptive responses for you.

People don’t like being told that what they believe isn’t real.

I personally think the world is indeed real… but i also think nothing matters. It may seem like things matter, like pain matters, like despair matters… but in the end, we all die, and it’s all over. Whether it’s “real” or not, doesn’t matter.

What matters is that we’re here in what seems like an actual existence, and so we should behave accordingly, until we discover otherwise.

What if i’m the one in the coma, and your comment is just a part of my brain trying to tell me i’m in a coma, and that there’s something i need to do to wake up… or perhaps is warning me not to wake up, because things are much worse in the reality outside this one?

But no. I think this is all real, and this real world is saturated with astonishing shit, and some of us just can’t believe what we experience… even though it’s obviously real. So we have no choice but to ask ourselves “holy shit, is this really happening!?”

It’s just our brains rejecting what should not be true, but is.

I don’t want “this” to be real… but all of my faculties tell me it is. It looks real, feels real, sounds real, smells real, and when i try to test the limits of reality, i find them firmly in place.

If this is the matrix, they must have patched out almost all the bugs, and locked me in a “sandbox” so that i can’t alter the system.

I’m tempted to think “if this is a coma, i want to awaken from it,” but since i don’t know what state my body is in outside this, maybe i shouldn’t.

But i think there is some truth in the “everyone’s just acting” part. I just don’t think most of them realize that they are just acting. They are the ones dreaming. We are the ones awake. We are the ones not hallucinating.

At least, that’s my stance on it.