Yeah, I’m sick of being judged, judged wrongly all the time. I feel like every little thingÂ I say gets people moving this way or the other. Its pretty shite if you can’t be honest in life and lets face it, the truth is sometimes a bad truth. Is it best to go through life lieing withÂ a front up? I think in some ways it probably is. I’m sick of looking for gold in a land of shit, but the truth is I’m just not particulaly content withÂ my lot in this world of darkness. I look out the window,Â I walk down the street and I see alot of people but I just see no LIFE.Â I think life really is found in chaos and disorder, this world is living testomy of how order is just blackness gone mad. never a new thing rising, yeah lets keep everything DOWN. yeah nice one!
Well, Just rambeling now.Â I’m sick of being on the losing end of other peoples frailties,Â I don’t think there mine. People see what they wanna see and people see what they don’t want to see in the way I don’t want them to see it. No mans an island as they say and I’m sick of being alone for all the wrong reasons. IfÂ I look for something positive allÂ I get is disapointment, if I think IÂ have something positive it soon turns negative on me. I think this life is about learning to live positively with the negative outcomes, its all it can be reallyÂ until the day you finally find that jewell you’ve been searching for.