Right now, I really don’t see the reason for trying or for talking or for breathing. I’m just done. I’m tired of being not pretty enough. I’m tired of not being not skinny enough. I’m tired of not being perfect enough. I’m tired of being pushed around and being called those nasty names. I’m tired of not being good enough. And mostly, I’m tired of being tired. I don’t know why everybody hates me, or maybe I do because now I hate me too. I look at the mirror everyday and I cant look at that ugly looking piece of shit in the mirror. My “friends” can tell me I’m pretty but that’s not true. I am what I see myself. People only start caring when its too late. This generation doesn’t care either unless your pretty or dead. Damn, how messed up our world really is.
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hello, I get your tired, I empathise with that, so am I, when I look in the mirror I used to forget about my actual image and just see all the horrible words that i associated with myself, i think I’m evil inside, but now i’ve gained a lot of weight and thats added now too.
I’m so very tired of everyone being so disappointed with me but saying it to my face.
But you know what, i think if you’re on this site then you have a reason to feel that way, I think hope is something that doesn’t easily come around these days, I have no idea how i keep pushing, but i do, I think if you can just find one thing in your life that yo can hold onto for hope then it helps.
For me its the fact that there’s girl who makes me feel more special than anyone, she’s not my girlfriend, in fact she has a boyfriend but that doesn’t matter she a great friend and I like her, and she keeps me going just by her smile. I have had some troubles to power through but if you can find one thing to hold onto it helps.
If anything maybe this will help – most of the people who are on this site are in a similar position and many of them want to help, because there are good people out there, they want to help.
I hope i could help,
peace
thank you.
that post right there actually gave me some hope left.
The TV and Hollywood is telling people what is attractive and beautiful, but that’s not reality, it’s make-believe. What they don’t tell you is that people find many things beautiful and attractive in others. A nice smile or personality. An interesting way of seeing the world or the way you might let others get to know your warm side.
Women who are cute tend to attract all the wrong kind of men. And that leads them to sadness, alcoholism, drug addiction and all the other screwed up stuff we don’t see. We all have a habit of seeing a 2 minute snapshot of someone or a couple and thinking they have it all, but most likely, they don’t.
I can’t tell you to be happy with yourself because I never really learned how to do that. But I can tell you to stop beating up on yourself, because that serves no purpose. If you think there are things about you that are honestly bad, then change them, otherwise…don’t look in the mirror and find faults and don’t spend your time thinking about how others are better than you. Instaed spend time reading, or learning, and looking for things to laugh about and ways to make others laugh. If you spend your time creating positive things in your life, no matter how small, positive things will eventually come your way. Love will absolutely find you if you work on the positives, remain patient and take control of your thoughts and emotins in positive ways. I’m on your side! 🙂
Ironically this is exactly how i feel and i agree: how messed up is this world where physical appearances are what’s judged instead of the soul that’s within! I think somewhere along the lines things got so superficial 🙁
The whole being “not skinny enough” .. “not being pretty enough” .. the mirror issue! Those statements strike home so hard. And the ironic thing is, i have a partner. Yet it doesn’t fix anything like i thought it would. It just makes me more aware of my flaws!
My advice to you hun is that, sometimes all you can do is say “fuck it” because at the end of the day, the only one who has to feel satisfied with your looks is yourself! It’s much easier to love yourself and be who you are and not let these superficial things stop you from being who you are.
I know this doesn’t make much sense because i’m in the position you are in now! But i just wanted to say that you’re not the only one and people like me are here for you and wont judge you on anything
you’re beautiful.