Mom: I cannot thank you enough for all that you have done for the family. Thank you for working so hard to pay for necessities, housing, and my medical bills. You will no longer have to deal with that though. The end is near. I’d like to also add that I wish you understood the way I have felt all of my life. The words I recall hearing still hurt me until this very day: “a mistake,” to Rebecca. The beatings were not a lesson learned, nor helpful to my self-development. Your yelling and screaming did nothing but torment me, I never wanted to hear it, felt like curling up in a ball and ripping my ear drums out. Your favoritism still hurts me, yet I hope you continue to treat them like gold, because you have finally realized we are human beings. I wish I was never born yet you chose to bring me here [mistakenly], thus bringing yourself suffering and stress. Well you will have one lesser of a burden now. Another tip, stop talking shit about your own children to others. Word gets around, hence why I never want to be around, try avoiding your presence. It hurts just to even be in the same room.
Dad:Â You are such an asshole but I thank you for caring and providing for us, excuse me, them mostly. You aren’t my real father, yet still to this very day I call you that. Thanks for trying and for contributing to the abuse as well; verbal, physical, emotional, mental.
Brother: Don’t do anything you’ll regret. You’re apparently turning out like me and Nikki, which is a pathetic comparison. Keep it up in school, I wish we were still close and you weren’t so judgemental, disrespectful and agitating.
Sister:Â Go fuck yourself, you’ll believe everyone else but me, accuse me for the littlest of things and try to get me in trouble. You are a HORRIBLE being, selfish, greedy, gluttonous. I hope you pursue acting because you sure as hell can.
Tammy: I wish we were carrying out the end together, but you had to decide to do it on your own. I love you though.