When i was about two years old, my mum left me in a small house with an 11 year old babysitter for a whole weekend to get drunk.
I remember people telling me that i would have been in care if it wasn’t for my Dad, although now that i’m growing into my teenage years he doesn’t pay any attention to me. I live with my Nan and Granddad. My Granddad is maybe the only person i appreciate, along with my best friends. I obviously love my family, but i feel awkward around my Dad, and my Nan’s constantly drunk and angry, and she’s spending all of my Granddad’s money on Carling and cigarettes. I still see my Mum, although i hate going to her house. She’s constantly high on Butane gas fumes and is always accusing me of stealing and lying, which makes life way more difficult at home.
I have ‘talents’, i’m a musician,a writer and an artist, but i can’t really achieve anything because nobody supports me. I would love to become a singer, and i don’t really know a way to become one apart from Britain’s got Talent or X Factor, i see peoples dreams coming true and i really want that, but i wont get any support until i start to lose weight. I am happy when i go to school, my friends all make me laugh and its fun, but i don’t like school work, who does, right?. Yet lately i am struggling to smile. When i come home from school i don’t help myself, there is nothing to do but to sit in my room,i have no friends around the small area i live in and my best friends live on the other side of town. The only people around my area at my age are either slags, chavs or hang around with six year olds. My Mum is currently unemployed and so tries to earn money to pay her rent by prostitution. When i go to her house, she speaks openly about sex and her ‘clients’ in front of me. My little sister still goes there, she’s 9, and i cant wait for her to grow up and realize how pathetic our Mum is, but that’s not going to happen anytime soon. I also want to speak to someone seriously soon, but it may stop her from seeing her Mum, and if she is prevented from seeing Mum, she starts biting her classmates. She has been expelled from two schools so far for biting children so i cant say anything or take serious action. She is so innocent and i love her to bits. I want to stop seeing my Mum but i wont have any way of seeing my little sister. I don’t know what to do anymore