I know, but ctb-driver’s last post was apparently with gun in hand. Whenever anyone gets to that point, it’s critical. It’s a funny feeling hoping the trigger isn’t pulled; yet knowing if it is, a soul has found peace.
I think CTB was/is a she, not a he.
That moment when you have a gun in your hand, and you think you’re ready…..that’s the moment of truth. In that moment you realize how that expression “suicide is for cowards” is complete bullshit. Pulling that trigger takes a lot of guts, there’s no going back, no do-overs, no “Oh, I didn’t really mean it”. There is no morning after. It’s – The End –
(Unless you believe in reincarnation. Then you get to do it all over again).
Amen to that, blip. I once put a loaded gun to my eye and stared down the barrel for half an hour. I learned I didn’t have the guts. Those who pull the trigger have my sincerest admiration. And envy.
You say you didn’t have the guts. Maybe, or maybe it just wasn’t your time yet. The fight in you was still there.
Wanting to do it doesn’t make you a coward. Sticking around and enduring more misery takes guts too.
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He’s been around for a long time. I wouldn’t speculate until you have more than just an inkling.
I know, but ctb-driver’s last post was apparently with gun in hand. Whenever anyone gets to that point, it’s critical. It’s a funny feeling hoping the trigger isn’t pulled; yet knowing if it is, a soul has found peace.
I think CTB was/is a she, not a he.
That moment when you have a gun in your hand, and you think you’re ready…..that’s the moment of truth. In that moment you realize how that expression “suicide is for cowards” is complete bullshit. Pulling that trigger takes a lot of guts, there’s no going back, no do-overs, no “Oh, I didn’t really mean it”. There is no morning after. It’s – The End –
(Unless you believe in reincarnation. Then you get to do it all over again).
Amen to that, blip. I once put a loaded gun to my eye and stared down the barrel for half an hour. I learned I didn’t have the guts. Those who pull the trigger have my sincerest admiration. And envy.
You say you didn’t have the guts. Maybe, or maybe it just wasn’t your time yet. The fight in you was still there.
Wanting to do it doesn’t make you a coward. Sticking around and enduring more misery takes guts too.