so I don’t know where to even start, I’m going to college this fall. I don’t know if Im excited or not about it… I don’t want to leave my family, I hate them at times and get in fights with them but I still think I will miss them a little even though I’ve been dying to get out for years cause I cant take all there shit. Im bi and I feel like that is going to stop me from making friends and I’m worried about that already. I have horrid anxiety and depression and so thats not helping at all. I haven’t really kept in touch with my high school friends because they had a lot of drama but I have talked to a few, but they all tend to stress me out because all I do when I hang out with them is listen and try to help them with ONLY their problems, I never say one word about myself. There is this one friend I have but I’m losing touch with her just like everyone else. There is nothing I can do about it either, she’s moving on in her life and she is actually happy and I am happy for her and I feel me without her is so much better for her… she wont have to deal with some random 18 year old shit.
There is just so much change happening in my life and usually I love change but there is all way to much at once and its fucking with my emotions, no one really understands when I explain it so I gave up on that.
Sorry for the rant but needed to get it out..