I like fighting, as a sport and life I guess. I really want it all to end. But I can’t bring myself to end it, I really want something out of my control to give me a fight I can’t win for my demise. Apparently that’s tougher than it seems, I’ve been hit by 2 cars in 1 week and it left me with little more than some bruises. I’ve survived 7 attempts (apparently I’m bad at it) and numerous accidents growing up and I wake up almost astonished that I’m still on the planet. I seriously walk around miserable and I can’t do anything about it. My girlfriend left me, loves only me, cares about me, but doesn’t want to come back. It’s one of those things you know soon enough a new guy will be in my place. I new girl likes me, and I want to give her a chance but I know my heart, my soulmate, the person I want to be with forever is my ex and she isn’t coming back. Have you ever thought about you’re part in the universe? Mine is to give and never receive, and hers is to weaken me so life has an easier time killing me.
I want it to end, I want to go down in a disaster, I want to lose.
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give this new girl a shot. if anything it will make your ex jealous and maybe she’ll come back. i dont like the idea of ‘using’ somebody to get her back. but you can play it in a way where you let her down easy. just give your ex some time. she’ll come around regardless. who knows? she may have a rebound guy after you but after that crashes and burns she’ll be lookin back to you. just keep your cool
Thanks for being positive. I don’t know, I guess I don’t see the bright side and I pretty much assume she’s gone forever or that how much she loves me will slowly vanish after not talking to me for a while or she’ll fall in love with this new guy and you get the picture from there. I’d be more ok waiting if I could stop thinking about what she might be doing with these guys.
yeah, u gotta try to distract yourself from those thoughts. so talkin to this other girl will really help with that. my ex broke it off with me a month ago and was with a new guy a few days later. it hurts like hell but you gotta stay positive and try your best to focus on other things. its ok to cry it out every now and again. you have to release that energy but after that pick yourself up, chin up and keep on truckin’.
But I really want her back, I never believed in a “soulmate” or “the one that got away” until her. I do truly love her with all my heart. Its hurtful that she will probably fall out of that love for me and a new guy will replace me and she won’t ever come back.